TESTIMONY OR CONFESSION OF CRIME?

It was a long road getting here as I got married in the year 1990 and waited for the fruit of the womb all these years in anxiety, despair, anguish, and disappointments. I had battles here and there, my in laws wanted my husband to marry another wife, and so I decided to act, get a solution and also pray. Needless to say, we did the usual series of tests both at home and abroad and when work finally took hubby to the States years later we started our series of IVF only by the best all to no avail but I was glad we were out of Nigeria as the pressure reduced.
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Looking back all our results where perfect, Doctors called it unexplained infertility, I called it an attack of the enemy. I got to a stage of desperation and depression when we got a visitor from Nigeria who had also been waiting and wanted to come buy baby stuff before her due date. She looked rosy with her belly, she was beautiful and I coveted the pregnancy, she told me her baby was a miracle, a gift from God after being treated and prayed for by a Pastor’s wife in the eastern part of Nigeria who is also a medical doctor. This brought me renewed hope and I snapped out of depression. We both went round buying baby stuff which as usual I bought stuff for my own baby as I believe I am an expectant mother.
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She would have loved to give birth in the US but the Pastor’s wife insisted she gets back to Nigeria on her due date and deliver in her hospital. This she willingly did not dispute as after all without this woman she might never have gotten pregnant. She did her shopping and went back, apart from the delay in her due date as she went when she thought she was in labor but the Pastor Doctor told her it was not her time, she delivered a bouncing baby girl and it was such a great party which hubby and I came all the way to attend.
Since I was in Nigeria and held this bouncing cute bundle of joy, I was convinced to see the Doctor myself. I felt safe in that she was a Christian and a medical doctor and I saw she had results. An appointment was booked and she told us with her, if we get treated here, we will carry our baby in Nine months more or less. I was excited and started the treated, she gave injections both for my hubby and I including extra stock we took to the States as we returned home and administered the medications.
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Lo and behold I got pregnant, since my period ceased, home pregnancy test didn’t pick it as it said negative so I did three trips to see her for scans and she confirmed I was indeed pregnant, these scans I saw and I could see my bundle of joy coupled with the fact that subsequently my tummy was growing beautifully until the issue of delivery came up, I naturally wanted to have my child in the US which is where I live and she vehemently disagreed and insisted on the birth in her hospital. I never thought anytime I returned to the states to see a Gynecologist here so I got back to the US and booked an appointment with my Gynecologist, who was pleasantly surprised at my tummy, she asked how far gone and I told her six months.
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Naturally she did a scan and it was the longest scan ever…she prodded and searched and looked nothing was in the womb, I was confused myself as just weeks back I could see the baby in my womb and also hear the heart beat of my son, she looked at me and asked how I got pregnant and when I told her the story, she broke it to me that I was not pregnant and this was a case of child trafficking which she will be forced to report. The next thing I remembered was London bridges falling down as I fell and fainted thank God for the bed behind me. My husband was called and the news broken to him as well, while I was admitted to run tests to ascertain why I was having pregnancy symptoms with no baby in the womb.
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My husband reported the case and FBI got involved who contacted Nigeria and the case is ongoing. Painfully for me, the Pastor’s wife is on the run. We paid her N3Million for this baby, or should I say no baby. My friend too has gone into hiding as she introduced me, she doesn’t want her baby to be taken from her as she says our cases are different. Tell me is her baby being born a miracle testimony or a confession of crime? I want to know…..
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UNDER ATTACK?

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Funny things happen as they say…

You have counted the time of your ovulation and you are looking forward to it and all of a sudden, the office sends your hubby on an out of station work, or a day before you remembered he killed your pet rat and an argument ensued and the next day-D day, your ovulation… both of you are still not talking to one another to even remember.
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For some,it is the day a terrible headache starts, a flu, malaria and all what not, and you had to see your GP for medications before you know it Ovulation has ended. You missed your chance!! I know…lol… it happens to me too! What do you do? Be wary of such things and pray, if need be, fast!… as when you hear other people’s story you will shudder at how a simple thing as meeting on your ovulation day became disastrous…
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Someone asked, are we under attack? As something always seems to happen at the time I’m ovulating to keep my husband and I apart, work or sickness or visitors. Well, while my first inclination is to say, Yes. I will say no, for no “weapons” formed against us will prosper. All the plans of the enemy will be turned around for our good, ovulation or not, God is still in the business of making babies.
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So though it is possible for Satan to block a husband and wife from coming together at the right time every month, I believe God has greater power to thwart such machinations. SO, WE ARE NOT UNDER ATTACK but PROTECTED BY GRACE. We will succeed in Jesus name!!!
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Medium, Seer or Prophet 2

Unfortunately the world is filled with these ones and we need to just open our eyes to be able to recognize them before we are trapped in their evil snare. The bible is filled with ways to discern who a false prophet is; it cautions us Christians about such falseness. Christ said in Matthew 24:23-27(read up) “false messiahs and false prophets will appear and perform great signs and wonders to deceive, if possible, even the elect”.  Peter counsels in 2Peter 3:3 that “knowing this first: that scoffers will come in the last days, walking according to their own lusts” and also in 2 Peter 2:1 he says“there were also false prophets among the people, just as there will be false teachers among you. They will secretly introduce destructive heresies, even denying the sovereign Lord who bought them bringing swift destruction on themselves”.

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Miserably, many will follow their depraved conduct and will bring the way of truth into disrepute. In their greed these false prophets and teachers will exploit you with fabricated stories of visions seen concerning you and proffer solutions that you will have to buy from them to set you free. Paul restated again in 2 Corinthians 14:29 that “prophets should speak” but that “the others should weigh carefully what is said because time will tell whether what they say is true or not”. Before you go on falling for a doctrine hook line and sinker, try and hold it against God’s words and see if it flies. What is their take on the word of God or on salvation itself, does it come in line with what the bible says? What does your prophet say about the son of God, Jesus? Does he pray in the name of Christ? Does he ask you to go to a particular “holy ground” before you can receive deliverance? How about evangelism, does your prophet preach Jesus as the only Savior of the world or includes that you need to accept his own Shepard too?

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How do they live, it beats me when Christians go to prophets who have more than one wife for solutions. Or prophets who tell you they need to sleep with you as part of the deliverance process? Some even say that they need to fondle your breast as there lays the demon troubling you, as it happened to a good friend. Her aunty took her to see a prophet and as he was praying with her kneeling before him, she is heavily endowed and all of a sudden the prophet grabs her breasts and told her the demons tormenting you are in there; in shock she stares at him but prophet was oblivious as he had his eyes closed, she brought him back to reality with a slap when she noticed his privates bulging and walked out on them both. Sadly a lot have been raped in the guise of deliverance some of these are even on Youtube just search for Nigerian false prophets. The book of first John is so apt when it says that “Whoever has been born of God does not sin, for His seed remains in him; and he cannot sin, because he has been born of God. In this the children of God and the children of the devil are manifest: Whoever does not practice righteousness is not of God, nor is he who does not love his brother.”

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A lot of these prophets out there also size you up and gives you the message you want to hear. Like my friend who went to see a prophet for her son, she was not wearing a ring and the lady prophet exclaims, “I know why you are not married yet! Your destiny is being blocked and you need to do this and that to get delivered”. Some tell you the amount required to complete your deliverance! She was dumbfounded as she has been married almost 16 years and has five kids to show for it. She picked her bag and left immediately after telling the prophet that she was a married woman with kids. In shame the prophet could say nothing but watch her leave.

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Most importantly, when you meet a false prophet and his doctrine does not square up with the word of God. I tell you, flee before you are dragged into an abyss of extortion, abuse, manipulation and even witchcraft. The end times are here and the bible warns us already of the influx in millions of such false men of God. Ephesians 1: 13 after all told you that “In Him you also trusted, after you heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation; in whom also, having believed, you were sealed with the Holy Spirit of promise”. That is a great assurance, never entertain such people in your house nor allow them to mess with your mind or way of thinking. Never allow them to pour into you the spirit of fear like most of them do, saying without them you might never be delivered as they are the ultimate solution; that is from the pits of hell.

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I pray we will not fall as pawns in the hands of such evil prophets of wickedness. What is your story? Ever had an encounter with such people? Share with me, I would love to read your experiences, your inputs and your encouragements. Selah

 

#BRING BACK OUR GIRLS

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I have had little sleep over the issue of the abducted girls for I am so horrified when I think they could be like my sister, niece, daughter or even me!! Bad thoughts one might say, but it is the reality of over 200 girls and it’s been over month! Their names were published and this brought me even closer, they are young girls, human beings who are in the proverbial Babylon, subjected to hell on earth! I wake up thinking about these innocent ones and I cannot begin to fathom what it is they are going through.

 

One day they had breakfast and said, ‘good bye mom, see you later’, and mom said, ‘have a good day at school love. Some might not have remembered to tell them they were loved, they just believed that like every other day, they will be home in a few hours and alas! It has been more than a few days!! We have heard all sorts, they were captured to be used as human shield, they were captured to negotiate with the Government, but who knows what horror they might be going through doing hard labor, being forced to cook and clean and some being molested, raped and tortured.

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Most of these girls if not all would be virgins, can you imagine a gang rape being their first experience at sex? Can you imagine the sexual assault? These girls who are between the ages of 13 and 17 most likely being faced with such trauma. How do they survive such or forget it? I can imagine some of the girls, out of fear of being killed, simply because they were bold to fight back from allowing these evil men of the Boko Haram to have their evil ways with them. I can imagine the wickedness with which the criminals would force themselves into the girls, without any form of preparation, most of whom are virgins!

 

I can imagine these young girls, whom must have thought of their first sexual experience with their own spouses in decades to come, experiencing it now with hardened evil men, terrorists, with men they never bargained to encounter or will never ever want or desire in any way on concrete cold floors of a cursed God forsaken wild forest, an habitat adulterated with machine guns, grenades, bullets, sludge, grief, despair, despondence, wailing and gnashing of teeth and bloodshed.

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I remember in the movies where we see little children abducted and forced to slavery, rape and death when the girls fight back refusing to be defiled and then gunned down in a show of power to scare the other ones with just a bullet to the head, or a slash of the throat or a stab in the chest, or even slashes on their bodies and intimate parts. This reality is what we see today in the case of Shekau and his cohorts.

 

Apart from the trauma, have we thought of the psychological illness, or all forms of infections, HIV, Hepatitis, Venerable Disease like syphilis, gonorrhea and all sorts that these girls potentially face?! How about the physical assault, battery, incarceration, being unkept, not allowed to bath or clean up, no change of clothes, starvation and what have you. Could it be their fault? No? Is it the fault of the Government that fails us over and over again? Is it their insensitivity, nonchalant attitudes and lack of planning.

 

What are the Legislators doing, how about the executive arm of government? If this had happened in another country will these girls still be missing knowing their location? Who are the sponsors of the Boko Haram? Nothing is being done, the children of our leaders are schooling abroad, and those in Nigeria are under heavy protection. Our leaders are attending functions, some go for parties, have drinks, sleep well and yet our girls are missing!!! When the enemy steals the future of our nation (the Chibok Girls) what do we have left? The old Anthem reads thus…

 

Nigeria, we hail thee,

Our own dear native land,

Though tribe and tongue may differ,

In brotherhood we stand,

Nigerians all are proud to serve

Our sovereign Motherland.

Our flag shall be a symbol

That truth and justice reign,

In peace or battle honour’d,

And this we count as gain,

To hand on to our children

A banner without stain.

O God of all creation,

Grant this our one request,

Help us to build a nation

Where no man is oppressed,

And so with peace and plenty

Nigeria may be blessed.

 

You might ask, what do we have left? We can pray, join the group praying, as you pray, picture these girls in bondage, and plead their case before Him as He is the only hope we have. Now it may look to you like nothing is happening, but we will not lose sight of God’s power, cause even when we feel nothing is happening, something is in the spiritual world. We will not be weary; we will keep praying and when He comes through for us, the whole world we see this and we will testify. The book of Romans caps it all well, in Chapter 12 and Verse 12; it says ‘Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.

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God bless Nigeria. #BRING BACK OUR GIRLS!!!

 

 

 

 

Medium, seer or prophet???

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‘The Spirit world is not happy you are here, they say the minute you got here they knew you will be delivered. Your childlessness is as a result of someone punishing you for past sins. On your part, you have offended enemies within, your husband’s part it is promises broken made to a jilted lover. Your husband’s maternal family also wants him childless,’ these were the words of Prophet X as narrated by Atinuke, a childhood friend.
She continued her narration, ‘when I entered the shack I said to myself, what would bring me here if not for the respect and love I have for my Aunt? She had been pestering me for months on end to see her prophet who can solve all problems. As I entered with my sassy dress and all, I was accosted by a rude ‘omo ijo’ (church member) to cover my head immediately or stand the risk of ejection. The look of disdain I gave him made him relax and leave him as I was getting ready to give him a few words of what I thought of him but stopped in my tracks when I saw my Aunt’s pleading eyes… I mellowed…lol. She said, ‘je ki a kujo mo nkan ti a ba wa’. Meaning let us face what brought us here.

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The prophet soon came out and after all pleasantries; he looked at me from head to toe. He looked at my Brazilian human hair, my makeup, my well manicured nails and my painted toe nails and immediately went into the spirit and said, ‘ for us to do this work effectively and successful I need to discard all foreign things from my body, meaning the hair, the makeup and the nail polish, no acrylic! He then went on to do some spiritual gimmicks (please watch Yoruba African magic or Yoruba plays on YouTube so you get what I mean). He started singing a song of victory he proclaimed he has seen the solution since his own prophecy work was different from others who will ask for money, he mentioned all he said above, about the spirit world he just travelled to and gave some Psalms to read in water, to be used to bath and drink and also white fasting (fast where you don’t take pepper or oil, I think) and to top it all go to a certain place called the mountain of deliverance, he said, ‘after doing all these, all perpetrators will be revealed to you and you will be delivered from their evil machinations.’

Atinuke stared into my eyes after narrating all that, in her eyes I saw a woman who was at some cross road, desperate and didn’t know what to believe anymore while also wondering if she could do it, she confessed she had done the fasting, and tried reading the psalms but got overwhelmed at reading about 10 psalms in each bucket of water her and her husband uses to bath and also every cup of water they drank as directed, so just decided to fast and pray. Why did she come to me today? Her aunt is on her neck to go to the ‘ori oke’ mountain of deliverance and she has come with justifications, asking me won’t it just be like going to redeemed camp to pray? I paused and I asked if you get there what are you to do? She said pray, get a man child to get you some holy water from the rock and drink, it is a place where even you and your husband cannot stand together but separately as women and men had both their sections. I then asked, if you go and get pregnant afterwards, on testimony day in your Pentecostal church, will you say, ‘Praise the Lord with me, I went to Ori-oke and got deliverance and this is my baby to show for it?

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She was silent, an awkward silence and I narrated another story to her story, I had been forced to go to such too and the woman prophet this time said what she saw was that I have been trying to get married for years and some forces where making this impossible for me, so I need to come for deliverance, stay in her church for 7 days, fasting none stop, they call it ‘awe biribiri’, and after that say yes to the first man I see when I get home, my friend who took me was mortified, full of shame, I smiled, to humor her I asked the woman, what if it was my married neighbor I saw? She said it means it is he God has chosen for me, and I will have to accept it. After grilling her for a while just to waste her time and also to make sure she had no way out; I told her I had been married four years! She was shocked, afraid and didn’t know what to say. I got up in disgust and left. You see, she has been doing this in the past and got away with it, so she thought obviously, since she is not wearing a ring (which I forgot to wear that day as matter of fact) she had seen new meat to slaughter, since she also told me her solution will cost me money but in the end I will come out victorious.

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What gives people around you the right to expose you to such spiritual entities in the name of helping out? What gives them the right to pressure you? How come you get pressured when you claim you are a child of God? What gives the so called prophets ability to see such visions (as some of them can be spot on), they tell you the story of your life and you marvel, this must be an oracle from God, remember the passage where Jesus said false prophets will arise in my name? When you let them in, they keep the power over your life, take the place of God and in no time you have silently been drawn to idolatry and spiritual adultery! You do not need anyone to tell you who you are in Christ! If your situation persists it is to glorify Himself not man. There was always a good reason in the bible for women who had delays. Hannah had delays just to birth a Prophet as powerful as Samuel, Elizabeth had delays just to birth a great fore runner as John, Rachel had delays and she birthed Joseph. BE PATIENT AND HOLD ON.
I will tell you what these prophets do, while some of them may mean no harm, some sow the anxiety seed into your life. In Atinuke’s case, she is in dilemma, to do or not to do, go or
do not go? Her husband is vehemently against it and she wants to go behind his back as the prophet says, it is the spirits hardening his heart against the solution. Atinuke’s blood pressure has hit the roof; she has lost sleep, worrying over nothing and uses sleeping tabs thinking of this issue. The non issue that Christ has given you victory for over thousands of years ago! All He wants from us is to hold on, fix our eyes on Him the Author and Finisher of our Faith!
What happens if I don’t do this ‘solution’? Absolutely nothing, for we are God’s children and have victory in Him alone. Do not let any prophet deceive you. Whose report will you believe? Read Deuteronomy 13:1-5 just see what it says here,
• ‘(1) If there arises among you a prophet or a dreamer of dreams, and he gives you a sign or a wonder, (2) and the sign or the wonder comes to pass, of which he spoke to you, saying, Let us go after other gods‟ – which you have not known – ,and let us serve them,(3) you shall not listen to the words of that prophet or that dreamer of dreams, for the Lord your God is testing you to know whether you love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul. (4) You shall walk after the Lord your God and fear Him, and keep His commandments and obey His voice; you shall serve Him and hold fast to Him. (5) But that prophet or that dreamer of dreams shall be put to death, because he has spoken in order to turn you away from the Lord your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt from the house of bondage, to entice you from the way in which the Lord your God commanded you to walk. So you shall put away the evil from your midst.

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SELAH!

 

SART: Preparing for IVF: Emotional Considerations

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I went searching for answers on emotional health of couples undergoing IVF and I came across this site which I know has great articles that can help-THE AMERICAN SOCIETY FOR REPRODUCTIVE MEDICINE-see link below. They were kind enough to give me permission to use their article.

You cannot begin to imagine how emotionally tasking the process is and how depressing. Most people fall into depression and end up with a shrink. I hope this helps a lot of people and I hope you get more stuff to use on their website.

Some of what couples discuss when going through the trying times of TTC include:

1. Feeling of being punished by God

2. Overwhelming sadness and constant crying or rage; some even have a burst of envy for other parents

3. Feeling of shame which makes most couples hide and withdraw into a shell

4. Emotional eating and thus becoming overweight

5. Insanity in rare cases

6. Criminal tendencies i.e kidnapping or stealing or purchasing a baby via illegal means

The list is endless, please see someone when you feel these and more. Feel free to share how you feel in the comments page and help could be made available if you so desire. Remember, you are not alone.

I would like to say thank you to the American Society For Reproductive Medicine for allowing me use this article. Please enjoy.

 

SART: Preparing for IVF: Emotional Considerations.

 

 

CREDITS: https://www.asrm.org/detail.aspx?id=1902

*TTC- Trying to conceive

*IVF – In vitro Fertilization

The Longest wait ever…Adebisi has boarded and landed! ? Or has she?

The fourteenth day came eventually; I had not started bleeding like I read in hoards of internet research so I was hopeful that it was going to be a positive one. It was our first IVF and I always prayed that when we eventually did it, it would work out in our favour and we got a lot of confirmations and mini miracles along the way, so we had high hopes and I had pregnancy symptoms which they told us could happen with some of the drugs I was still taking anyway, I believed I was pregnant.
We got to the hospital way early with our sample as requested and after collecting our samples we sat in the waiting room for just a few minutes which I thought was a whole day. Just as the Doctor called us in and I got up, I staggered a bit in dizziness as the fear was just too much. We sat in his office and I refused to look at his face, for some reason I had to look for something in my bag, on my phone or on the wall of the Doctor’s office! LoL. He asked if I had seen any blood etc and I said no to all, he finally said, ‘it is well. We are sorry to inform you that this cycle didn’t work out. I held my breath for a few minutes in a haze, I couldn’t hear anything anymore as my husband and the Doctor spoke, all I know was like I was suffocating and gasping for air as if I was drowning in the sea of tears gushing out of me. They didn’t even know I was crying until they heard the sniffs, snorts and saw a wet tissue! If you remember the song, ‘cry me a river… The guy wrote it with me in mind as I cried, I tried smiling letting them know I was okay, but the gasps and tears didn’t stop, it just kept coming. He told us to wait a few more days, and that if my period doesn’t start, we should do another pregnancy test and a scan and with that we left.

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Walking out of the office I met another lady with her eyes swollen coming out, we looked at each other with consoling looks, said nothing and left our separate ways. That day was the darkest, deepest, saddest day of my life. My husband just held me till we got home, we prayed for peace at home and he stayed with me throughout not going back to work.
Consequently, I sank into a bleak state of despair and depression, bursting into tears at the slightest provocations, for example, if I saw a mother cuddling her child I cried, whether in life or on TV, if I see a pregnant woman I cried, everything made me cry. When I thought will I ever have a child? Was IVF really my only option? Where is God in all this? I cried and cried some more. I was cry baby, took that award from Kate Henshaw. Lol… And as I cried I ate, entered every supermarket I came across and bought chocolates, sweets and ate. Everything I saw that came across my nose, I sniffed and ate. I couldn’t really tell anyone so it was tough, especially when my husband had to travel for work and sorts. I never got any form of counseling from the clinic so I didn’t even know I was entitled to this as the Clinic just stopped communicating at one point. (This was more of my perception as I later was told the doctor actually tried getting in touch but my phones were off as I zeroed off from the world).
It took me months to get over what I consider a loss, as I felt it was a baby I had and lost; though all my pregnancy tests which I overdid anyway came negative. I immersed myself in work and the word and gradually started coming out of it; I started an exercise regime to lose the weight I packed on and stopped using the folic acid, cleared my drawers of the remaining injections and moved on. I say it again; it is good for the husband to be a great support and I thank God for mine as he was just so supportive, encouraging and loving at this period. This brought us even more closely together and it is helping our relationship till date. While I am not looking forward to another roller coaster with the IVF Clinic, I am exploring other options and praying knowing that with God all things are possible. THE END

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To Adebisi, I leave this word, as I know what you have gone through…He says NONE shall cast their young before time nor be barren in the land. Notice the underlined NONE, that includes you, we shall not be barren in the land. So fix your eyes on Jesus, the Author and Finisher of your faith. To my readers, remember to share and encourage others; feel free to add your stories and experiences as well. Bless.